Why do i feel like these things in my last few years?

Though I read your story and was feeling sympathetic towards you, I noticed your nickname, Kazanova. That tells me that either your story is not true and you are just messing around with us OR you have misrepresented who you really are inside and somehow these girls that you want to be with have figured out that you have ulterior motives and are afraid of you! Either way, you need to think about your own true self and quit worrying about women...find lots of fun pursuits and the right woman will come along when she is meant to!