Please help me .....i hate what i am feeling and feel like suicide?

You could start by saying, "Mom, I know you think that he might be a good match for me, but I just thought you should know that he drinks and has already slept with other girls. I'd like to show you some pictures from his myspace page. I know you think it would be ok to marry a second cousin but it is something I feel uncomfortable with, also the fact that he drinks." Your mom will be most concerned with your happiness. Don't feel the need to commit suicide, you are in control of your life. Before you know it you'll be looking back on this dilemna and it will be all over with. It will turn out alright just remember you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. Don't be afraid to let your mom know how you feel and tell and show her what you know about him.